I have a confession... I am submerged in a sea of self doubt, got a severe case of "who the hell do i think i am and what the hell do i think I'm doing-itis"....haven't felt like this in quite a while. But then again I haven't stretched my boundaries like this for a long time.
Alongside trying to turn my creativity into some kind of "business" I find this whole blog thing very uncomfortable and a real challenge to my feelings of self worth. It takes me back to those days long ago when i stood at craft stalls and faced the masses scrutinising the objects I'd made from my heart...will they like my stuff? Am i good enough? Is my stuff good enough?
This blog, like my wee craft stall, is me....snippets of me, my creations, my life, my heart. And with this I guess comes the unavoidable possibility of "rejection". Oooh its hard!
But i think this is good for me to feel.. growing pains as I unfurl, bloom and grow...especially when I keep blogging despite my inner protest shouting "just delete EVERYTHING!"
So while i face my own inner challenges I've decided to participate in another challenge which I'm really looking forward to. The "creative colour challenge" (button at sidebar) hosted by Louise Gale is soon to start and should bring with it an explosion of colour...and i DO like colour!!
And on that note I shall go and hug my lovely Stu who is always a voice of support and encouragement...I can see a bit of glitter sparkling from his beard...yesterdays remnants from the crafty morning with my wee one..Don't you just love that about glitter?!It gets EVERYWHERE!!! :0)